At What Point Do I . . .

Realize he's not going to call?
Stop caring that he's abandoned me emotionally, yet again?
Deal with the fact that this may be unforgivable?
Quit wanting his opinion?
Not miss him?
Stop kicking myself for not holding grudges?
Stop thinking about our "future"?
Stop turning to him for emotional support?
Come to terms with him not being the man I thought he was/is?
Stop feeling foolish?
Stop loving him?

It's been too long since I've ranted about Tall Blond Biochemists, ultimately.